I’m not exactly sure what was different the 3rd time joining WW.
Maybe it was because I was kind of settled. I wasn’t “away” at school any longer; I was married, living in “our” house, working, and finishing school.
My Mammaw ended up sending me the money to pay for WW meetings so I could really do it and get to my goal weight. I’ll never forget that and am so appreciative.
And somehow, I did it.
I reached my goal weight in November of 2004 and had to go through “maintenance” for 6 weeks, which ended the week before Christmas. That was definitely a challenge. Thanksgiving fell during those weeks where I was having to learn how to not gain/not lose anymore. But I did it.
I made Lifetime with Weight Watchers in December of 2004, and they recruited me to work for them starting that following January.
Working for WW was actually a great thing for me, especially right after reaching goal.
It kept me motivated – I was working the meeting I used to attend, so I still got to see the other members. I also made some amazing friends with the ladies I was working with at the meetings.
I did great maintaining that first year. I also ended up attending Leader Training for WW and eventually was leading a meeting of my own.
But something changed in me in 2005. I’m not really sure what it was, but I found out those bad habits from college were sneaking back into my life.
I had to weigh in once a month (at least) and send in my weight to my manager for WW.
That in itself was fine – but I started trying to push it every month. I would eat well the week before I weighed in, and just eat whatever and however much I wanted the rest of the month.
Again – did I really think this would be okay? I was fine for a while, but the weight eventually started coming back on.
In 2006, I found myself 10 pounds above my goal weight, and I actually changed my goal weight because I just didn’t think I would ever be able to get there again and maintain in that place.
Anyone that has ever lost weight can probably tell you that the more you have to lose, the easier it comes off (at first).
Having to lose that 10 pounds AGAIN took me 2 years.
Mostly because I was trying to do this and get rid of these bad habits at the same time. I would do well for a few weeks, and then “mess up” and give in.
If I ate more points than I had…I would just throw my hands up and think “well, I’ve already messed up…I might as well just have whatever I want now and start over tomorrow”.
Except that “tomorrow” sometimes turned into starting Monday.
Starting next Monday.
Starting next month.
I was still at a healthy weight for my height, but I wasn’t happy and I was still just horribly critical of myself.
Something had to give.
Ain’t Too Proud to Beg
Okay, I know I’m super late to do this, but I just found out about this after a friend sent it to me yesterday.
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